I don't know how to express this joy, happiness and excitement here. This silly, wide smile on my face is unimaginable! I am on cloud nine, literally. Gosh, I cannot contain this happiness till my organs are scrunched together. I am bubbling with excitement!

GOODNIGHT!!!

Today was much much much better than I had expected! Firstly, the weather was wet, and hence, we started our training later than scheduled. All the present GOH contingents assembled at the MPH. Oh! Congratulations to Ain for passing out as a PDI! That's lovely. On the way back to GOH Land, Girls, I was wondering, "Hey! Isn't that Sir Hadi?!", and Haryani was like "Sir Hadi!". Then I saw Sir Farhan and recalled that he mentioned to me he would be there for rappelling. He went "Hi Jean", muted. I felt rather happy to see Sir Hadi there! That guy.

Released for early break and when we were queuing for our snacks, I saw Sir Syahiid and was stunned. Whatever for? Good lord, god knows. I was ecstatic already. I cracked up and went in hysterics. I have not seen Sir Hadi and Sir Syahiid for thirteen days. Anyway, tomorrow will be two weeks since our POP day. How sad. Two weeks have passed but memories of Spec Course are still vividly intact in my mind! Anyway, training begun soon after. Was not that intense as compared to COC's training.

At the FUP, I happened to be looking up at the rappelling station and saw this guy who really resembled Sir Syahiid's standing posture. When I heard him shouting his particulars to the belayer, I just recognise that voice. In the midst of the rehearsal-like training, I heard someone who sounded like Sir Hadi and a couple of seconds later, he just zoomed down. Apparently, I suppose that based on Sir Hadi's character, that must be him. Haha. Lastly, I seriously heard Sir Farhan sharp and loud. I was like "Whoa, Sir Farhan uh.", foof!

One Bartley guy from Air who has nice facial features which obviously includes sharp nose!


I went shopping with Hui Bin yesterday after the trip to HQ. The lady actually suggested that we collect Sergeant ranks, but after receiving opinions and taking in some considerations, I decided not to. I thought I saw a Sir yesterday on our way to Marina Sqaure, could not really tell.


In the nutshell, today was fantastic, somehow or rather. As the contingents were rather big, I did not manage to catch some familiar faces from GOH Land, Guys. Sadly enough. Gracious me! Fancy me getting worked up over trivial matters like those mentioned above. Hahaha. God, Siska can make me laugh uproariously, sweetheart.

Goodnight!

There are simply too many pretty websites and I shall list them below. Anyway, try out www.typepad.com.

http://anahata.typepad.com/
http://www.notcot.com/

Whatever now. I am feeling pretty annoyed, somehow or rather.

Goodnight, bollocks to my dad!

That guy is hot! Anyway, I grabbed these photos from a blog; http://facehunter.blogspot.com/. Pretty much love it because the fashion there is love. It is wacky, unique, bold and wild. That's so love. You would definitely have all eyes on you if you dress in that sense in Singapore. Love their fashion!!! Gosh, you guys got to see it for yourself.

Okay, that is one real colourful blog; http://flygirls.typepad.com/fly/.

Well well, all these are just few of the photos in their blogs.

Good evening.

First and foremost, congratulations to our school's cadets who completed their Spec Course Phase 3. Well, all were promoted to 3rd Sergeant! Good for them(:

Perhaps tomorrow or on Thursday, I have to head down to HQ( again!). Merely just accompanying Hui Bin and Mashinta to draw their No. 1 uniform.

Found something on the net moments ago..

May You Find This Christmas Inner Peace
May you find this Christmas inner peace
Equal to the patient love you give,
Releasing all the pain you can release,
Renewing all the grace with which you live.
Yearnings may you turn to rhapsodies,
Choosing to find happiness in beauty,
Holding in their haunting melodies
Riches that sustain your sense of duty.
In anger may you find an evening star
Showing you the way to Bethlehem.
The angels that watch naked from afar
May you hear sing of who would none condemn.
As all you love are blessed in having you
So may you feel the joy in all you do.

Composed by: Nicholas Gordon

Kriss Kringle, my Santa boy(:

That was the day when we skived during our CIP at Toy 'R' Us. More like Kids 'R' Us, hah.

Some unknown day, obviously after training. Look at Ain's hair. You know what I mean..
Ain!

For my sweetheart on his birthday.

Topshop Mini!

Another unknown day at the beach.


Hahaha.

Dennison clearing the flour-ary mess he made.

I shall carry on with more pictures later!

Oh oh, I saw this LG Prada phone on the magazine last month. Today, I saw it on display. Gosh, that phone is so dazzling. It cost more than a thousand but I love it. So pretty and glamorous and elegant! You guys should really just take a look at it; http://www.pradaphonebylg.com/, http://www.pradaphonebylg.com/lgpradaphone/lgpradaphone.html. It is touch screen. I just cannot take my eyes of it(:

Goodnight.

Never let the words of others' affect your mood.

Good evening.

I went out for a movie. Itching to go out soon(:

Oh oh, today is exactly one week from the day Spec Course Phase 1's cadets passed out. I miss those guys who can really drive everyone insane. Alpha 2 is so inquisitive and would only bombard the CLTs with silly questions. Hahaha(:

Goodnight!

Good evening.

Well, I absent myself from NCC training yesterday. Feeling much better already. My sun burnt isn't that bad now. Phew!

I just came home from my mom's place. Went over to her house yesterday night. My dad totally ruined my day. I just had to quarrel with him before going out. That sucked. Never mind about him. He asked me to catch Ocean's Thirteen with him tomorrow. Coincidentally, Alexander from Spec Course also asked me to watch Ocean's Thirteen with him tomorrow. Alexander even suggested to go with my family and I. Hah.

Anne is back in Singapore! I really miss the company of my friends and Spec Course platoon mates. We shall and must meet up like in seconds' time. If that is not the case, I might as well just organise a slumber party at my room with Jean. I am not talking any sense, but who cares. Anyway, thanks Amanda, in advanced, for getting me that notebook.

Goodnight.

Good morning.

Yesterday was COC actual and I totally screw everything up! I was always at the back row till the last sizing, I was transferred to the first rank. Grrr.. What's more was that Japan invaded and my neck is sun burnt. It hurts and I can only grit my teeth and bear with the pain. There is NCC Day training today. I really don't feel like going. Even going to HQ is a hassle. Plus, Crescent Girl's would be there too. Yuck?

That blooming COC rehearsal today can really crush my arm. I guess my muscles would be tensed up tomorrow till my bones are all scrunched up. The colour of my arm kind off looking weird now. The front portion is lighter than the middle section but tanner than the top. My middle section is the darkest, pretty much like a little sun burnt. My face! That should be the worst. I wonder if my arm muscles can take three days of arm drills consecutively. Seemed like my concern is averted to the question if I can take the pain instead. Foof. I am, thus, once again worn out. Oops, I better turn in soon to grab some sleep. Sadly enough, I only had three pathetic hours of slumber last night. All of us made friends again. Like of course, like forever, whenever it comes to NCC. One thing: I so love Sea's GOH uniform. Uber smart and pretty. The entire uniform is white, even the boots. The boots is very beautiful. Look like wealthy people's product. I am green with envy! Shucks, actual performance tomorrow and it will take about ninety minutes and counting.

Goodnight.

I have no idea why am I having so many short, nonsensical posts today. I am thinking a lot with a frown. If this were to carry on, I guess I would be all wrinkled within days. I wish to see familiar faces tomorrow, seriously. I know I am bringing sentences from nowhere. Oh man..

I took a lecture for a joke, but it turned out to be gentle scolding.

Anyway, I have many, many people to thank. I have lost track who helped me recently. In any case, I would like to extend my thank-ologise here(:

Goodnight, my lovely ones. I am gone for good tonight. Retiring for the night!

Good evening.

Guess I have disappointed many people lately? Sorry if I did. I will try to get in touch with my friends soon. Perhaps not this week, really. Apart from the trainings, I would not be at home much. Not able to spend my time well at home so far. My schedule is so hectic I think some people are reproaching me. Well, I know, but I cannot do anything right? I am also very beat here.

Goodnight.

Good evening.

Goodness and outrageous and atrocious. Okay, whatever. I realised that I have been very busy with NCC events. It is up my neck, especially last week and this week. I will be occupied the next three days since I have rehearsals and parade at HQ. Hopefully there would not be any disputes over our appointments though. It may seemed like someone is mediocre currently, but I am sure after some time, that person would be able to understand what are the responsibilities he or she has to shoulder, and the dire consequences should any thing turns out wrong. I am sure everyone will live up to their name.

Trainings, trainings, trainings. Arm drills tomorrow? Gosh. Our unit have not been practising much of it. Not at all confident of that component. The performance would most probably be reduced to a flop due to me or something. I am seriously capable of busting the parade though, lol. I can hardly breathe in No. 1 full-u even. It is neck-wrapping. That tight I can even choke on my saliva. Haha.

Well, whatever it is, I wish everything will be smooth-sailing tomorrow. Those damn "gold" buttons.





That is obviously Hadi. Taken on our way home from Boon Lay, on Wednesday night. To Hadi: If you see this, do not be mad at me(:

Maybe not. It is too much of a hassle, haha.

Goodnight.

Good evening.

Something to rejoice about is that I finally got hold of Alpha 2's contact list. As I anticipated, Ma'am Lynette typed my email incorrectly. Fortunately, Jamal sent me the contact list email with attachment. And yay, Sir Syahiid felt that it was a pity he is unable to witness our POP. I will try to do a collage of every Alpha 2, if possible, since I cannot reach everyone of them. Alpha 2(:

I love NCC. Proud to be a cadet of NCC.


NCC Specialist's Creed:
I am a specialist of the National Cadet Corps.
I serve with pride and dedication.

I excel in my specialist duties,
ensure the discipline of my cadets,
and will nurture them to their potential.

I overcome difficulties with my adventurous spirit.
I will uphold the prestige of the National Cadet Corps to be the premier uniformed group in Singapore.

Wednesday, 30th May, was the first day of NCC East District Spec Course Phase 1. I felt pretty anxious and had to rise as early as 0445 hours. I walked briskly to the bustop near BM's house. Pretty eerie in the morning. Arrived at HQ and assembled. Sir Joshua said I coloured my hair. Grrr..

Travelled to Pasir Laba Camp at SISPEC. Big phew that Farah was in my platoon, Alpha 2. Initially, Ahmad was in my platoon too, but nominal roll was amended or something. A pity. Sir Syahiid and Sir Hamdan was Alpha 2's APC. Sir Syahiid is the best sir ever and ever. He was able to keep his cool knowing that we were still unfamiliar with the surroundings. Iryana, from the same CampFEAST platoon as me was once again in the same platoon as me. Alpha 2 consisted of only six girls, including me. There were a total of 46 cadets in Alpha 2 on the second day.

Talks and lectures, lunch and lectures, talks and exhibition. Rather slack, apart from the intensive marching in SISPEC. The CLTs were unfamiliar with the area. Once we were back in the campsite, one medic asked if I am all right. Haha.

Before breaking camp, everyone underwent hair inspection. I was pulled out. Naturally, I had to dye my hair black.

Foof, long way home; from Boon Lay to Pasir Ris.


On Friday, wonderful, I woke up at 0345. We had to report at Boon Lay, at 0630. I was seriously very reluctant to attend that course. Butterflies flew in my stomach. I kept complaining on our way to Boon Lay. Even Hadi moaned. The Ma'ams and Sirs checked my hair even before heading for Pasir Laba camp. And guess what, I forgot to bring my No. 3 belt! Great.

Booked in, settled in our bunks, attended lectures again. During meals, Haryani, Farah, Dickson, Ahmad and I would always sit together. For the first and second day, we were forever attending lectures.


Next morning, we had the most relaxed PT. Only exercises and no running due to the constrained compound. Right away after breakfast, we proceeded to our trainfire revision. No matter how many times I was taught on trainfire, I still cannot remember a thing. Besides stripping and assembling of weapon and loading of magazines, I forgot all about IA, loading and unloading of rifles. So never mind. And as usual, I am unable to pass my marksman fundamental. Lol..

All day long..

Sir Hadi and Ma'am Lynette was introduced to us. Our APC and PC respectively. Anyway, Adnan's brother, Adam was in my platoon too.


Day three, a Saturday, and also our GSK, trainfire and IFC's tests' day. I thought GSK test would be pretty manageable, but it turned our otherwise. We had a rather difficult time marching on the rocky road. Going downhill and singing. It was worst than I have described. We were broken up into sections and blessed me, I was under Sir Syahiid! Love him man, that joker. Sadly, Farah was under Sir Hadi and Ma'am Lynette. Sir Hadi placed his standards really high above. On the contrary, Ma'am Lynette was very lenient, but it was not balanced. Sir Syahiid tested Iryana and I together at the same time. He was impartial yet nice to section 2. And oops!!! I wrote in my appraisal that he was partial! Oh no. How dumb can I be?

Before our trainfire test, Sir Syahiid went through every single thing with us. Iryana was in the same section as me and for the trainfire test, she did much better than me although I do not know the timing and stuff. I was like the second last among six people when we were stripping and assembling weapons. When I was the first to insert the rounds, Sir Syahiid was like, "Finally Jean is the first.", hahaha.

I flunk GSK test and did the retest at night. While section 1 went for the interview with Sir Hadi and Ma'am Lynette, section 2 and 3 had a reflection period. All of us had to close our eyes and cover our faces while raising our hands for answering questions they asked. Sir Syahiid said that he may not be present tomorrow for our POP. I went awwwww in my heart, lol. How sad! He was the one who was with us throughout the camp. Okay, actual fact, it was Sir Hamdan that really stayed with us. We are all very attached to each other.

Final day and our POP. I only had one glanced of Sir Syahiid. We seen him once that day. He told us not to be disappointed and stuff; last words. Headed to SISPEC for lecture and AAR. Fatin sat with me in the auditorium, in the first row. For no rhyme or reason, unsure why, Ma'am Xiao Wei picked me to be the OIC. I was wondering why, since I did not wear any belt. She told me to borrow one. Had to diam the whole course and greet the Sergeant Major in front of everyone. Oh man..

Photo taking at SISPEC and the CLTs marched! A pity Sir Syahiid was not there. I want to see him in No. 3 though.

After changing to half-u, Farah and I were the only ones from Alpha 2 to assemble and Sir Hadi approached us saying that we should not have arrived so early. He invited us to a table and chatted with us. His topics are so random, saying something like he loves to play with his only sharp tooth. When the guys number off already, he said something very gentlemen, I thought. "IC, permission for my ladies to fall-in." He hangs "You moron!" on his mouth. The way he pronounces it..so cute.

During POP, the CLTs sat in front of the parade. I felt a pinch in my heart that Sir Syahiid was not present to witness Alpha 2's passing out. When my name was announced to receive the envelope from Sir Hadi, I was quite nervous. But argh, section 2 supposed to receive the envelope and handshake Sir Syahiid instead. Sir Hadi shook my hands twice and before that, he told me that my rank would be exciting. I thought I would receive a Senior Corporal, so I gripped the envelope, worrying. I reminded myself that rank is not everything, but well..

Fortunately, I got a 2nd Sergeant! I was the only girl in my platoon who was awarded that, and also the only girl in PRCS who attended Spec Course Phase 1. Not a senior Corporal, at least.

Sir Hamdan and Sir Hadi talked to us. I felt somehow or rather upset. Feeling the bitterness on the tongue when leaving the campsite was said to be when the course was strenuous. But I felt the bitterness because we were leaving, not even having Sir Syahiid to see us off. I love these four days. Very memorable and fun. I feel attached to Alpha 2 and our PC, APCs that I cannot bear to be separated with them. I know we will have a reunion, but when? How sad. I already miss the CLTs once my sight left the campsite. A another Sir Joshua congratulated me on the bus and I was stunned. I asked why and he knew I got a 2nd Sergeant. Pretty surprising. The cutest Chinese CLT in the camp. I would not mind staying there for a few more days. Love them people.

I am back from Spec Course. How ironic is it. I was so reluctant to attend the course in the beginning, but after the camp, I realised I love the camp, CLTs and friends a lot. I miss the camp. I miss Sir Syahiid, Sir Hadi and many other CLTs. Hopefully Ma'am Lynette will send Alpha 2 all our contacts soon. Update later..